Yoga happens in the awareness of a deep breath amidst work calls. Yoga happens in the silence that calms a reactive mind. Yoga happens in the compassion and care I extend to others whenever possible.
When I took my first yoga class, I wish I knew that I was making one of the best decisions ever. Before that day, I probably didn’t understand the meaning of the word “perseverance” and “consistency.” I was too young and distracted to really appreciate the gift that was presented to me.
Nonetheless, I stuck around and practiced consistently without really knowing the impact that would have on every aspect of my life.
I remember being fascinated by how the colors looked brighter after class, the depth of my breath after practicing, and how sweet the ocean breeze felt on my skin.
Yoga showed up in my life when there was no home.
And in a way, no attachments.
I was rebuilding my life in a different country. I was alone, and yoga became my companion on this journey. It was the only place where I felt loved, welcomed, and whole.
I remember the joy of finding an activity that was pure goodness and how positively that affected my life. I didn’t know that yoga would lovingly mold the adult I am today.
Looking back at my practice, I no longer need a yoga mat to know that yoga is there for me and within me.
Yoga happens in the awareness of a deep breath amidst work calls.
Yoga happens in the silence that calms a reactive mind.
Yoga happens in the compassion and care I extend to others whenever possible.
I continue to practice postures. But the postures are just a tiny part of an immense world of wisdom. As I flow through movement, I also enjoy the quiet moments of stillness.
Looking back at my practice, I was given a gift without even knowing it. These days I am more conscious that my practice is here to stay. My practice will always continue to change and evolve. My practice will always surprise me. And my practice will always be my refuge.
Adrian Molina is the founder of Warrior Flow. With over 15,000 hours of classroom teaching experience, Adrian is renowned for the sophistication and depth of his teaching style and the degree of mindfulness, compassion and precision he brings to asana practice. He is also a writer, massage therapist, Thai Yoga Bodywork practitioner, Reiki master, and a Kriya Yoga meditation practitioner in the lineage of Paramahansa Yogananda.
I was thirty-one when I plucked up the courage to walk into a yoga class studio to take a class. Because I was nervous I went early. As soon as I walked into the room I regretted that decision.
My grandmother threw open the curtains, letting the morning light flood into the room. “Good morning world,” she’d call, her voice a singsong. This is how every morning would start when we spent the night at my grandmother’s house. My sister and I, still in our pajamas, would sit on the baby blue carpet eager to follow her instructions.
I did my first downward dog poses on that blue carpet. We giggled our way through sun salutations. At the time, yoga was that funny exercise my grandmother did and that we did too when we spent nights at her house during summer vacation. When I became a teenager morning yoga with my grandmother stopped. She couldn’t wake me up in the morning anymore when I went to see her in the summer. I’d slink from beneath the sheets in the late early afternoon hours and run off to the beach with my cousins.
The practice didn’t call to me again until I was in my early twenties and happened upon a woman teaching yoga on television. The first time I saw her I sat on the sofa and watched the class. The rail-thin woman with long blonde hair moved fluidly through a sequence of poses. There was something fascinating about her movements. I remembered those mornings with my grandmother and decided it was time to try practicing yoga again.
In those days the instruction I received for my practice was limited to books and DVDs from the library and any programs I might be able to catch on the exercise station on TV.
I was thirty-one when I plucked up the courage to walk into a yoga class studio to take a class. Because I was nervous I went early. As soon as I walked into the room I regretted that decision. Everyone else had shown up early, and I was the only brown face among them.
I found a place for my mat and anxiously waited for the class to start. As I did I watched the people around me. Immediately one thing became very apparent to me that I didn’t have the right clothes or the right body to do yoga in a yoga studio. I felt drab in my faded leggings and tank top. I wasn’t fancy enough or thin enough.
I enjoyed doing the yoga class itself, but I didn’t enjoy it any more than I did at home. So, I decided that live-in-person yoga classes weren’t for me.
Since then I’ve been to in-person yoga classes maybe three times. Each time I’ve felt equally uncomfortable. Honestly, I don’t know when or if I will ever go to an in-person yoga class again. Frankly, at this point in my life, I don’t much feel like I need to. I found my yoga home online.
The Benefits of Online Yoga Classes
Practicing yoga online gives me access to a more diverse group of yoga teachers that I would have never even heard of if it weren’t for the internet.
There are many different types of yoga and sometimes it’s hard to find a class that fits your needs, especially if you’re a yoga beginner. Online classes offer a variety of teachers and styles so you can find the perfect one for you. They’re an excellent solution for people who live in rural areas or who don’t have time to go to a studio.
Practicing yoga online allows you to go at your own pace. If you’re not comfortable doing a headstand in class, you don’t have to feel pressure to do one. You can take your time and work up to the more challenging poses. Yoga is all about self-acceptance and there’s no need to feel embarrassed if you can’t do a pose yet.
Online yoga classes are affordable. Plus, you get unlimited access to all the classes so you can switch things up if you get bored.
I’ve been practicing yoga for a long time now. The diversity of teachers and styles keeps things interesting, and the affordability is great. If you’re looking for a way to start your yoga journey, or if you just can’t find the right class for you, I recommend giving online yoga a try. You won’t be disappointed!
Lovelyn Bettison has been everything from a massage therapist to a life coach, but her life didn’t start falling into place until she decided to put all other pursuits aside and follow her childhood dream of being a writer. When she’s not doing copywriting for companies like Omstars, she writes scary stories about things that go bump in the dark. She also runs a pretty popular newsletter about all things spooky and supernatural. If you like that sort of thing, go to her website to download a free copy of her novella “A Haunting at Cabin Lake.”
Honestly, a bigger problem was that having anxiety made me feel like a failure as a yoga practitioner and teacher. How could I have anxiety if the focus of my life has been learning to calm my nervous system and control my mind?
I’ve been using yoga to help me handle mild anxiety for my entire adult life, and it has been incredibly effective. But three years ago, just a few months after my mother’s death, I had a severe anxiety attack. I ended up in the emergency room since I didn’t know what was happening to me.
After hours of waiting and a whole bunch of tests, I remember the two emergency room doctors coming to talk to me. The one in charge said, “We can’t find any physical cause for your symptoms, and we think it might be an anxiety attack.” I laughed out loud and said, “That can’t be right. I’m a yoga teacher!”
For the longest time after that, I couldn’t bring myself to accept the fact that I have severe anxiety. I had kept up a regular yoga and meditation practice for thirty years, and I spent time every day calming my nervous system and working with my mind. But I couldn’t deny what had happened. For a while, my practice became very difficult. What had once been a sanctuary started to feel like an alien world.
I know that yoga has been proven to support people with anxiety, but it took me a while to find my way back to a formal practice. Looking back, I can see that one positive outcome is that my experience gave me so much compassion for the resistance I had seen in my students over the years. All of a sudden, I completely understood how difficult it could be to turn within, and why the subtle practices of pranayama (breathing practices) and meditation are particularly challenging. I was a beginner again.
Luckily, I haven’t had another anxiety attack like that one, although the fear still lingers. Since then, my practice has evolved in so many ways. Most of all, I’ve let go of the striving that came out of wanting to be a “good” yoga student. Now, I spend time every day with myself, but not always in the kind of formal practice that I used to require of myself. I move and find stillness in more spontaneous ways that support my mental and physical health in the moment. Sometimes I dance around the room and sometimes I lift weights and then do some asana and relaxation.
One of the things that helped me with my anxiety was the support of an amazing yoga therapist who allowed me to be a student again. I had fallen into a trap that is so common for teachers: we forget to keep learning. We think we know enough and stop there. I’m not going to go as far as to say that I’m grateful for my anxiety, because that is clichéd nonsense. I’ve tried to engage with my anxiety to expand the way I conceive
of, and relate to, my own mind. I accept that fear, worry—and even panic—are normal parts of my humanity. I don’t need to run away from those painful feelings toward some mystical idea of peace, which is what I was doing before.
Honestly, a bigger problem was that having anxiety made me feel like a failure as a yoga practitioner and teacher. How could I have anxiety if the focus of my life has been learning to calm my nervous system and control my mind? Well, I think the answer lies in the latter part of that statement: controlling the mind is a dangerous game. Since my anxiety attack, I’ve been exploring new ways to approach my mind with kindness, and a new understanding of what I need. Instead of controlling my mind, I’m working on repairing my relationship with myself. Kabir describes it well:
THE FAILURE by Kabir
I talk to my inner lover, and I say, why such rush?
We sense that there is some sort of spirit that loves birds and
animals and the ants—
perhaps the same one who gave a radiance to you in your
Is it logical you would be walking around entirely orphaned now?
The truth is you turned away yourself,
and decided to go into the dark alone.
Now you are tangled up in others, and have forgotten what you
and that’s why everything you do has some weird failure in it.
I love Kabir’s premise that, “you turned away yourself . . . and that’s why everything you do has some weird failure in it.” He gets right to the heart of the issue of identifying with ego-mind instead of spirit. I also love the idea of normalizing failure. Isn’t that what it means to be human? Isn’t life a succession of failures that we learn from? How can you learn if you don’t fail?
Failure is the direct outcome of practice. Failure is what we get to do every time we get on the mat. We get to fail at this pose or that pose. We get to fail at relaxing when we lie in Shavasana and our nervous system is buzzing with caffeine, and we get to fail at meditating every time our mind wanders. I’ve never practiced yoga and not failed, and that’s exactly the point.
Failure is the key to yoga. It’s like that expression, “the broken place is where the light shines through.” The failure is where the light of yoga shines through to expose our most tender places—our wounds. It illuminates the limits of the body and mind, not so we can overcome them through sheer force, but so we can love them more. How else can we become whole (healed) without completely embracing our mistakes and our failures?
If we don’t accept failure, we live in an imaginary bubble of our ego-centered imagination. We deny anything that goes against our self-image; we create “alternate truths.” The first step in social justice and equity work is identifying our shortcomings. We need to admit to our prejudices, our unconscious bias, and our mistakes. We need to clearly see our failures so we can do better. But how can we see them if we are constantly defending ourselves, no matter how many mistakes we make and how
many people we harm?
We can learn how to fail in public by apologizing for our mistakes. If I make a social media post that is offensive or incorrect, I can either defend my position over and over in angry comments, or I can say, “I was wrong, and I’m sorry.” As Maya Angelou famously said, “I did then what I knew how to do. Now that I know better, I do better.” There is tremendous wisdom in that simple statement.
Yes, yoga practice is a journey to self-love, but not in an egotistical way. This is where we so often get it wrong. It’s about loving our differences instead of hiding them, celebrating our limitations instead of denying them, and literally investing in our failures. By embracing failure, we integrate our humanity and our spirituality. Rather than dance between them, we can love our limited human body and mind as fascinating expressions of our spirit, and appreciate how essential they are to our journey.
Failure reminds us that complete identification with the body-mind is unhealthy, and that we haven’t been “orphaned” here, as Kabir describes. Our spirit isn’t separate from this human experience, rather it’s the glue holding it all together. There is no part of us that is not connected to spirit, even the ugly, dirty, and painful parts. And the way to experience spirit isn’t by denying the ugly parts, but by loving the most orphaned parts of ourselves more.
Reflection: Can you think of an experience in your life that felt like a failure, but in the end was actually a kind of success?
Jivana Heyman, C-IAYT, E-RYT500, is the founder and director of the Accessible Yoga Association, an international non-profit organization dedicated to increasing access to the yoga teachings. Accessible Yoga offers Conferences, Community Forums, a Podcast, and a popular Ambassador program. He’s the co-founder of the Accessible Yoga Training School, and the author of Accessible Yoga: Poses and Practices for Every Body, as well as the forthcoming book, Yoga Revolution: Building a Practice of Courage & Compassion. More info at jivanaheyman.com
This practice saved my life. I began to connect with my body in ways I had been unable to previously. My relationships with my family and others began to heal.
NOTE: This post was written Fall of 2020.
Let me tell you the story of my first memory, setting the stage for a lifetime. I was 3 years old. Being first-generation Latinx from Colombia, we spoke Spanish in our home. My mom’s English was very limited. I had no concept that English and Spanish were two separate languages.
Every day, I would watch from the living room window as the older girls in our neighborhood played jump rope. I longed to join them. I begged my mom to let me play with these girls, and she was hesitant to do so.
One day it happened. My mom asked these girls to let me play with them and they agreed. I was ecstatic! When it was my turn to start jumping rope, I was excited to show these older girls how smart I was, to show them I knew how to count. I jumped in and gleefully sang “uno, dos, tres, cua —.” The rope stopped. The girls were laughing and pointing at me. A deep clenching grip took hold of my inner being, and I thought, why did they stop holding the rope? Why are they laughing and pointing at me? One pointed at me and said, “What are YOU SAYING? What IS that?” As they all laughed and pointed.
I immediately felt a deep shame come over me. That was the moment when I first noticed I was different. My skin was darker, my hair was darker, and what was this I was speaking? I ran home in tears, full of anger and a deep shame that I had never felt before. I was furious at my mom for not telling me to speak English — for not telling me that our language was different. After that, I refused to speak and later refused to speak Spanish. As I learned to speak English or speak publicly, I could not do so without stuttering. I was a stutterer for years, afraid to use my voice for fear of being shamed.
The disassociation and internalized shame continued. Yes, my family had many privileges other BIPOC people do not. We were middle-class. We never suffered from housing or food insecurity. We had access to schools. Yet, we were also one of the few families of color in our suburb. With that came many micro and not-so micro-aggressions.
My sister and I and our dear Black friends and neighbors were turned away at block parties because “our mothers worked.” We were told to leave because we didn’t “live in that cul-de-sac” (we literally lived in the one right next door and it was an entire block party).
Being asked if I was adopted because my father is Jewish and white. The paralyzing fear of going somewhere with him, being asked this question and having to explain, yet again, that he is my real father.
Being asked, where are you from? I was born in Portland, was the reply. And the inevitable, no I mean where are you really from? You’re so exotic.
The mortification that came with teachers calling my sister and me Colombian coffee beans, yelling it at us from the front of the classroom.
The list goes on and on….
With every micro-aggression, I just became muted and smaller, hoping no one would notice.
These experiences further perpetuated my internal belief that I was not worthy of equal treatment.
I remained muted later on as a pre-teen when I experienced sexual abuse. I did not speak out. Later as a young adult, while living in abusive situations, I hid the paralyzing domestic violence. Then came debilitating drug addiction. These were very dark times. I was desperate, sick, and drowning in an addiction I could not see my way out of.
I could not use my voice to ask for help. And I could not use my voice to scream SEE ME! I am a human. I am worthy, and I need help.
The trauma ran deep within me. This internalized oppression and ingrained belief that I was not deserving of equality had not only robbed me of my voice but enforced my belief that somehow this abuse was deserved. The violence continued and after almost dying due to a violent attack, I was taken to the ER via ambulance after being revived. Neither the police nor the hospital staff treated me with any dignity. I was left on the ambulance gurney in the ER hallway for all to see: beaten, strangled, and bruised. They did not believe me or my story, as there was evidence of addiction. I was just another woman of color, a single mom in the system who was deserving of this attack and violence, not even worthy of the privacy of a treatment room.
I somehow started the slow climb back to life through treatment, family support, and some inner drive. There was something greater than myself that loved me enough to show me, guide my way out.
I began to change my life, raising my twin sons as a single parent and trying to be the best parent I could be. Juggling work and school, I somehow managed to finish college. Loving and raising my twin sons and providing for them was my driving force, my lifesaver. I began a career.
When I started my new “professional job”, as a healthcare executive, I was asked if I was the new housekeeper. Another time I had an episode where a white older woman came to my office and with a condescending pat on the knee, asked me “how did you get this job honey?”
Male colleagues and supervisors asked me to get their coffee or make their hotel reservations for work travel. All the while I continued to stay muted, putting my head down in shame, complied, and just worked harder to show everyone I was worthy. Taking on more tasks than my colleagues and working longer hours. I had much success in the field. I climbed the corporate management ladder.
I learned not to speak. When I did speak about mistreatments, I was told I was difficult or reactionary, a too fiery (Latin) woman. I knew I had to continue to be an over-achiever, wear blinders, smile, and stay muted for there was no room for a woman of color to speak up and cause trouble. That was made perfectly clear. You went along with the game if you wanted to move up. I wanted nothing more than to provide for my young sons and better our living situation. So I silently allowed the racist assumptions, the micro-aggressions, the discrimination, and my own internalized oppression, believing this is simply how it was.
Later, I married a non-binary trans person. Yes, I was ‘out’. We were out and proud as a couple, yet co-workers would intrusively ask me to educate them. It was exhausting to explain to everyone why the pronouns they/them. It’s confusing, they exclaimed. I don’t understand, they stated. Why can’t we just use he/him? Why can’t you all just be a lesbian couple, that would be easier for us to understand? Again, I was the outsider looking in, continuing to compartmentalize my life, never able to show my authentic self. And worse yet, still never realizing or fully knowing how muted I truly was.
I continued to struggle with addiction and alcoholism. Addiction has been my fight since my early teens, with bouts of short and longer-term sobriety, often exchanging one substance for another, or supplementing with disordered eating. Relapses are a part of my journey.
I found myself trying to get sober yet again. I had heard yoga could help. I drug myself to a very popular studio and teacher. My leggings had holes and I had a Punk Rock t-shirt on, smelling like the night before. There were at least 100 students packed in this studio–all white, primarily thin, and they all seemed to know each other. They greeted each other with hugs and kisses, love and light for all.
NOT ONE PERSON SAID HELLO. Not one person said “welcome.”
I only got abundant sideways glances. Let’s pretend we don’t see her. I became keenly aware I was not fitting the part, so I just stayed quiet and found a spot. I looked around, noticing no other people like me. I also noticed the fancy clothes. What were these clothes all of these people were wearing? I guess you needed to wear certain clothes to do yoga?
During this class something magical happened. I was transported into a spirit-body-mind state I’d never before experienced. I went from feeling mortified and unseen to something unknown to me. There were no words for it. There was just a realization at that moment that I was connected to something very profound and sacred. A calling home.
Despite the shame of my first experience, the gift the yoga practice gave was bigger. I was determined to return. I went home and immediately googled the various logos of the clothes I saw people wearing as next time I was going to fit the part. Perhaps I could just blend in unseen, versus being the recipient of awkward side-ways glances. I found the clothes and then found the prices. Holy shit! I immediately got some pants with said logos for $6 via EBAY and my journey began.
The Divine Spark was lit… my transformation began.
It wasn’t long before I began a daily practice, and as a result, I started to heal. I had not realized how much trauma I had stored in my body and how much emotional, physical and spiritual pain I was in as a result. And though I was never really fully part of the yoga studio crowd, the transformation and healing received from the practice was stronger than the feelings of being unseen, or the micro-aggressions experienced from others around me.
I discovered I was stronger than the stories I told myself about something being wrong with me.
This practice saved my life. I began to connect with my body in ways I had been unable to previously. My relationships with my family and others began to heal. Instead of being called angry, reactionary, and quick-tempered, people commented on how I was calm and caring. People started asking me for advice on how to handle conflicts in their lives. I began to let go of some long-held resentments. The deep shame lessened and I began to see the world more clearly.
My teacher at the time was leading a 200-hour teacher training and he mentioned it could be an opportunity to go deeper and learn more. I had never thought about teaching, but I jumped at the chance to go deeper. I applied and was accepted. Halfway through the training, my person, Ami and I moved from San Francisco to Portland. It was during this time that my friend, mentor, and teacher Khristine Jones asked me to go start a Yoga Punx collective in Portland and expand the community of donation-based, harm reduction, inclusive yoga. She started the original Yoga Punx collective in San Francisco and Oakland and had created a community there that was healing, inclusive, and really quite magical. I was terrified to start one in Portland, yet I did what she asked. I was going to teach yoga.
Khristine always saw in me what I could not see in myself. The only community I ever felt accepted in and seen was the punk rock community. The commitment to freedom, to social justice, and the connection of people committed to community was incredible. The Yoga Punx community was an extension of this accepting culture and created a sanctuary for healing.
My life changed dramatically once I arrived in Portland. I started a regular Mysore Ashtanga practice. I founded and started teaching Yoga Punx PDX. Our classes quickly grew from 1 time per week to 3 times per week, to more. The opportunity to open a studio presented itself, and within a year of moving we owned a Shala, our community continued to grow, and suddenly I was a yoga teacher, and Ami and I were studio owners.
We deepened our studies, traveling to attend various workshops. The students rarely engaged with us at these other studios, and if we mentioned we owned a studio, the response was always “you DO?”. We are two people of color who are heavily tattooed–one femme and one non-binary 2 Spirit trans person–who don’t fit the mold of the young, white, thin practitioner. Most of the time we were just left alone and ignored, but we loved the practice and continued to study.
I was a new teacher and we were growing our yoga community. The feeling of not really having a voice within the yoga world at large grew. I became a teacher later in life, I was not the stereotypical teacher, and my lifetime of feeling muted continued in this space–yet much, much worse.
For our first trip to India, I begged Ami to make the trek to Mysore. It was my dream. After spending a beautiful month in Kovalam studying with our teacher, David Garrigues, we went to Mysore to study. Quickly, it was apparent that we were not seen here. We had left Kovalam where we were seen by our yoga community and our teacher, from being included and welcomed to something much different. No one really interacted with us. We attempted small talk at various yogi hang-out spots, but really no one was all too interested. Not letting this deter us, we quickly made friends with locals. We found and studied with less popular local female teachers, often being two of four students in their Shala. Although we never really connected with the yoga community in Mysore like we did in Kovalam, Mysore was a beautiful and growing experience. Our teachers in Mysore were inspiring and accepting. We continue to go to India every year.
My teaching grew. I started a school. I started a Mysore Ashtanga program. We expanded our classes and established our non-profit, Yoga Punx PDX. Yoga Punx PDX’s mission is to bring the healing transformation of yoga and indigenous practices to all, regardless of ability to pay, removing financial and physical barriers to the practice. We create radically inclusive and brave spaces. We take yoga to those who cannot access studios by bringing it to treatment centers, nursing homes, shelters, and beyond.
We have taught in needle exchanges. We have taught in camps where our houseless friends live. We have taught for DHS to a group of newly immigrated people, who spoke five different languages. We use a harm reduction, trauma-informed approach.
We were and are always on the fringes. I never felt I had a voice in the larger yoga world; I was just an older, darker woman, serving those like us: people who otherwise did not feel welcome in other yoga studios. Looking back, I see I started the school, the studio, and its programs to create an urban sanctuary for healing to unfold. A place to honor the lineage of the practices — Bhakti and Ashtanga — that saved me, and to offer its sacredness to others who never felt a “part of”.
Service. Harm Reduction. Community.
These are our guiding principles and we strive to never water the practice down.
Then the world changed. The George Floyd murder highlighted the injustice, oppression, and police brutality that Black Lives Matter and other anti-racist and social justice groups have long been fighting for. Demands for justice grew. Justice for Breonna Taylor, Ahmoud Avery, Elijah McClain, and hundreds of others. BIPOC voices were amplified. These cries for justice are finally being heard on a larger scale. It was long overdue.
I found and participated in a social media challenge. I rarely do such things. But, as an activist here in Portland, the “Amplify Melanated Voices” challenge spoke to me. Part of the challenge was to mute white influencer accounts and follow BIPOC yoga teacher accounts. I quickly went through who I was following on Instagram, and was surprised that the majority of the accounts I followed were of white yoga teachers. I found and followed BI & POC accounts. By the second day, I was TRANSFORMED! A veil was lifted. Every day, instead of feeling resentful, small, and insecure from scrolling through my feed, I felt excited and invigorated I found these accounts gave me strength, inspiration, and pride. I was amazed and inspired by these strong voices! I realized by day two how I was living my life muted. I realized by day two that I felt small and unseen. By day two, I clearly began to see and believe that I too have a voice, I am a teacher. I have a place in this yoga world. I BELONG. I began to reach out, make connections, and network with strong and inspiring BIPOC yoga teachers. I am no longer alone. I am just a few weeks in with so much to learn. But I am ready. Ready to speak, to use my voice, no longer muted and no longer small.
I struggled with writing this story — my story. Trying not to succumb to and believe the internal chatter that tells me: No one cares. No one wants to hear from you. I don’t want this to be a story of all the wrongs and mistreatments and abuses. Yes, these are definitely a large part of my story and cannot be ignored. But I also want it to be a story about the power of VOICE. The power of seeing others like you — and when they have a voice, how healing can happen. This is the power of rising up. The power of feeling welcomed, safe and SEEN.
I share my story so that you can look within your communities and see those who are muted, unseen and small. Yoga claims inclusivity — but I share my experience so you may see how exclusive this “yoga club” truly is.
I want you to ponder: Could someone in your community be having a similar experience? How can we learn to be better and do better? How can we make room, space, and safety for all?
We all deserve access. How can we make our spaces and communities a welcoming sanctuary? You never know a person’s story- and your Shala, your space, your class could be the lifeline that they are barely hanging onto to pull themselves back from despair. You could be their last chance.
I have much to learn. I see the many privileges afforded me that others do not have. I am ready to do the work, study, seek mentors, and use my privilege to help others. Will you join me?
Sandee firmly believes it is never too late to start a yoga practice. Although she came to the yoga mat at various times in her life, it didn’t resonate with her until her mid-40s, when she came to heal from emotional, spiritual, and physical pain. As she physically healed, she found unexpected gifts of love, resilience, patience and acceptance. She learned she was no longer a victim; she was a survivor. With this conviction, Sandee set upon a path of liberation for the collective.
Sandee is the founder and Executive Director of Yoga Punx PDX, a 501(c)(3) non-profit organization committed to breaking down barriers to yoga accessibility and supporting those most impacted by oppression and systemic racism. She firmly believes that no one is free until those most marginalized are free. Yoga Punx PDX is a community that offers donation-based yoga, meditation, sound healing, and indigenous healing practices, taking classes to communities who otherwise would not have access. It also provides scholarships to QT, BI & POC, as well as folks in recovery for the Heart of Vinyasa Yoga Teacher Training.
Sandee is the owner and director of Burning Spirits Yoga in occupied land now known as Portland, Oregon. The Portland Metro area rests on traditional village sites of the Multnomah, Wasco, Cowlitz, Kathlamet, Clackamas, Bands of Chinook, Tualatin, Kalapuya, Molalla, and many other tribes who made their homes along the Columbia River creating both permanent communities and summer encampments to harvest and use the plentiful natural resources of the area.”
She, along with her co-teachers, guide the Mysore Ashtanga Program and the Heart of Vinyasa Yoga School, which is committed to education in Yoga philosophy and the Eight-Limbed Path. Along with her co-teachers at Burning Spirits Yoga and with Yoga Punx PDX, Sandee is committed to social justice and anti-racism and providing de-colonizing offerings from an intersectional and trauma-informed lens.
Lastly, Sandee is a healer — a Curandera working with energy, guidance, yoga, and plant medicine to guide folks to self-healing.
Sandee is forever grateful to the teachers and ancestors who came before and made this work possible. Without their labor, this practice would not be. She would like to thank her teachers, past and present: David Garrigues, Dianne Bondy, Tim Miller, Saraswati Jois, Khristine Jones and her life partner, Ami Lawless.
Sandee holds an MBA- Healthcare, BA in Gerontology. Sandee is a EYRT 200, completed 100 hours of advanced Bhakti Flow, current 300-hour student with Dianne Bondy, Primary Series Teacher Trainings, apprenticed for 3 years with her teacher, David Garrigues. Sandee is a Level 1 Reiki practitioner, and has completed intensive trainings in herbalism, channeling and energy healing.
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