• How to Navigate Your Emotional Highs and Lows

    Put these simple techniques into action and watch the results. You’ll be amazed at how the emotional rollercoaster ride you’re on with the highs and lows shifts into a steady flow bringing in balance, harmony, and a greater sense of wellbeing into your life experience.

    Do you feel like you’re on an emotional rollercoaster these days? Does it feel like every day is a new adventure emotionally? One minute we feel happy, ready to tackle anything coming our way, and in the next minute, we feel angry and defeated perceiving that nothing ever goes right? Believe it or not much of this is created through our sleep process. It all starts with how we get out of bed in the morning.

    How we wake up from sleep is how we set the emotional energy for our day. If we get out of bed and we’re feeling happy to be alive, happy to start another day, happy for what awaits us our day can be off to a good start without us having to give it much effort because we seem like we’re already there. We automatically think “It’s going to be a good day!” because it simply feels that way. In the same way, we could wake up in the morning feeling the complete opposite, angry, frustrated, exhausted like a truck ran us over while we slept which then makes us feel like the day may not turn out so good simply because we woke up differently than the day before when we felt as though the world was our oyster and only good things were on the horizon.

    If we’re experiencing this rollercoaster of emotions repeatedly, we may feel like we are emotionally imbalanced and perceive that as our state of being, possibly also perceiving there may be something wrong with us like bipolar disorder etc., however, if we take a moment to reflect on our bedtime preparation the answer to resolving this experience may be easier than we think. Navigating these emotional highs and lows may be as simple as becoming more aware of the experience/practice we are creating for ourselves when heading into a sleep state as well as how we are entering our waking process.

    When we lay down to sleep, we’re laying down with all of the experiences we’ve had throughout our day still fresh on our mind. We may even be tossing around the experiences we had a few days, weeks, or months ago creating a monkey mind that just doesn’t stop like a snowball tossed downhill rolling faster, picking up momentum gathering more snow increasing in size so big it’s impossible to stop. Our thoughts are the same way, they don’t stop or slow until we stop or slow them. If we’re not paying attention to them, especially at bedtime, we will create the snowball effect and they will consistently grow, becoming unmanageable, which is how we experience a monkey mind. If we want to experience a more balanced life we must exit the roller coaster of emotions by doing a better job of being conscious by making it a practice to manage our thoughts. If we are not conscious of what we are taking into sleep state that energy will continue to manifest through our dream state, morphing into some new feeling that we will be holding in our energy field/body upon waking. If we go to sleep with good thoughts, chances are we will wake feeling good and in the same light, if we went to sleep with a problem or negative thought, we will wake with that same feeling amplified due to the way our mind will use that emotional energy in dream state and we’ll wake up feeling emotionally out of balance or defeated before we even start our day.

    How do we counter this so we can ensure waking up in a higher happier vibrational state in which to start the creation of our day? It’s simple, we start by taking control of our sleep process. We become conscious of our thoughts as we get into bed and begin to discharge the day with gentle breaths in and out focusing on our heart center. As we begin to feel relaxed, we can ask that “the momentum of our thoughts slow” so we can enter sleep state. This is an Abraham Hicks tool I’ve used for years. Once we start to feel our thoughts slowing, we can decide if we need to repeat that request or move on to asking to “be on our highest timeline” available to us in this moment to create the experience we desire from our highest place within us. We must remember we are the creator of our reality, if that is our truth, we can shift into higher co-creative states of being and clear the lower discordant energies through dream state. Dream state is where most of our soul’s work is done.

    Next, we ask for all new realities upon waking, this ensures that we are exiting out of the experience from the day we just had and requesting a new experience that is higher in vibrational alignment than the day we are transitioning from. Will this happen overnight? It can, however, believing we can shift our reality / emotional state by simply realigning our personal vibration takes a bit of practice like playing an instrument or learning to drive a car etc. Practicing this at sleep time will greatly reduce the amount of rollercoaster-like emotional highs and lows we may have since it’s all based on how we are entering sleep state as well as how we are waking in the morning.

    Another practice I love is keeping an unlined journal nearby in case we lay down to sleep, run through the process outlined above, and still can’t slow our mind. In this case, I recommend getting up and opening your journal and either start writing about what you still haven’t been able to let go of or doodling. Why is this important? The minute we put the pen to the paper the mind has relaxed, and in most cases, we can’t find anything to write about so just doodle a flower, geometric patterns, the sun and moon, anything that comes to mind in that moment. A few pen strokes and it’s over. Why unlined paper? Unlined paper takes us out of the 3D linear thinking mind and brings us right to non-linear 5D where our creator states of consciousness exist. This is always my go-to when nothing else works, then I close my journal, go back to slowing my breath, focusing on my heart, asking the momentum of my thoughts to slow, and so on.

    How we wake up is just as important as how we go to sleep. A good practice for creating balance and harmony to avoid the emotional highs and lows is to let yourself slowly wake up from your dream state. This means when we begin to realize we’re waking up we stay in bed letting ourselves fully come back into complete awareness before we open our eyes and jump out of bed. This is very important to our emotional state of being since during the night we are receiving many different energies from the cosmos (Great Central Sun) through our energy body that may need to fully integrate as these light frequencies upgrade our DNA, which we then need to adjust to. Therefore, some days we can wake up and feel dizzy, have vertigo, feel slightly nauseous, have eye / third eye pressure, migraines, neck, and shoulder aches and so much more. These light frequencies have become more consistent over the last few years as we are all going through our physical ascension. All of this is a contributing factor to how we are waking up. The more we know, and the more consistently conscious we are the better job we will do in navigating our highs and lows.

    Having a good practice at sleep time and waking state is the key to balancing the emotional rollercoaster bring us back to a self-empowered state of being where we are creating the reality, we desire merely by being present and showing up for ourselves in ways that can change our perception of not only the world around us but ourselves as well. Put these simple techniques into action and watch the results. You’ll be amazed at how the emotional rollercoaster ride you’re on with the highs and lows shifts into a steady flow bringing in balance, harmony, and a greater sense of wellbeing into your life experience.

    By Maria Deesy

    Maria is an Energy Intuitive, Ascension Guide, and Wayshower working within the energetic blueprint of both Gaia and her clients to access and assist in transmuting trauma at all levels. Maria’s also able to read to solar frequencies of the cosmos and can provide insight Into the energies presenting in order to better navigate our physical experience during our Ascension. Her work supports the awakening process of humanity. Connect with Maria on the following sites: website, blog, Instagram, or Twitter. Copyright©2020 MariaDeesy.com

    Photo by Anastasia Petrova on Unsplash

  • Opening Our Heart

    Each time we look to another to make us feel better or valued we give our power away to them. Feeling better about ourselves, our life, and feeling valued are all inside jobs. Nothing outside of us will give us what we need because we already know deep within what we need. We just need to show up ready to pay attention to ourselves.

    I’m often asked, “How can I open my heart more?” This topic can be really challenging since the key to opening our heart lies in loving ourselves, which is difficult for a majority of us to do. When it comes to putting ourselves on the back burner to serve another, we excel, but when we try to focus some of that attention on ourselves, we often fall short. One of the reasons for that has to do with the way we’ve been programmed which started in our early years, so we honestly don’t know any better. Now that I’m older I can see very clearly how self-love was not part of my upbringing through my parents as my role models, nor any of my extended adult family members. I wasn’t even aware of what self-love was, so I evolved without it often putting my needs last.

    My first awareness that I lacked self-love came at the age of 43 in 2005 at a Debbie Ford workshop at the Omega Center in NYC. I remember her suddenly asking the question, “What do you fear other people finding out about you?” In that moment my life came front, and center and I burst into tears unexpectedly. I wasn’t even aware of what I had been suppressing until that moment. I had just started my journey as a healer, a Reiki Master, and was also in the final months of my Holistic Coaching studies at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition but the truth was I felt like a fraud because I wasn’t a size 4 talking about healthy eating. I was a size 12. My perception of self was completely distorted, and I broke down in front of the hundred or so people attending the workshop. I could not see my own beauty because I never learned how. My mom was 5’10’’ and a size 14. She was always on a diet and never saw her own worth or beauty so she could not help me see mine. Instead, she always encouraged me to go to Weight Watchers with her. I didn’t get the magnitude of my lack of self-love until this workshop, which was only the tip of the iceberg. My eyes were open to my own pain and suffering; my heart was closed to loving me.

    In this workshop, I saw examples of my life flashing in front of my eyes over and over. I remember being young going to visit my grandparents. They were German and always cooked something odd that I didn’t want to eat like pig’s knuckles and sauerkraut. I didn’t like the smell and was sure I wouldn’t like the taste. My mom told me to “Be nice” and “Don’t say that to grandma”. I didn’t realize at five years old that I was already being groomed to ignore my opinions and feelings because they had little value. My job was to make another feel good even if I was not telling the truth. My parents were doing their best, I don’t blame them. They were most likely keeping the peace for themselves through me. Parents teach their children what they have learned. Their beliefs become our beliefs and our authenticity can be stifled. We forget our needs because we are unsure of how to respond out of fear of getting it wrong.

    Where does self-love enter our life? If we’re not taught to love ourselves at home or in school, and there’s no class on self-nurturing, how do we know it’s important to feed ourselves our own love? We really won’t know so we could end up looking for love on the outside, trying to find people who can make us feel the way we would like to feel. This creates more difficulty because we are still giving our power away to another, expecting them to be the one to show us how amazing, beautiful, and special we are. What if they only do that in the beginning and then if things change, they no longer tell us those things we need to hear? We could then be in search of the next person who will tell us how wonderful we are and rely on them to make us feel special. That is called Co-dependence which outsources our power. This is a looping cycle we become locked into like a hamster on a wheel until the one day we walk into the right workshop, with the right mentor, who helps us realize we’ve had the power all along! We didn’t come with a user’s manual so we go through life and experience the ups and downs which will finally make us stop searching outside and go within. We begin to ask questions like, “Why is love so hard?” and “What’s wrong with me?” “Am I unlovable?” The answer of course is that it’s not hard, there’s nothing wrong with us, we are very loveable. We just need to see our own beauty and value.

    The moment we stop chasing what is outside of us and come back within we can shift everything and the need for another outside of us to make us feel whole is no longer necessary. Each time we look to another to make us feel better or valued we give our power away to them. Feeling better about ourselves, our life, and feeling valued are all inside jobs. Nothing outside of us will give us what we need because we already know deep within what we need. We just need to show up ready to pay attention to ourselves. When someone presents a challenge and makes us feel diminished in some way it’s because through soul contracts, we’ve asked them to step up as our mirror so the lack of love we have for ourselves can be reflected back at us. Eventually, enough becomes enough and that’s when change happens. We must take our power back by loving ourselves enough to not want to suffer anymore. This act of Self-love is the first step to expanding our heart center.

    Going within and loving ourselves takes courage. It’s the most important part of opening our heart and establishing a direct connection with our inner being. When we start to work with self-love, we must be in tune to our own heart, which requires we do a self-assessment in order to begin to establish a relationship with ourselves. We must begin to put our needs first in all situations and say no to things we do not feel aligned with. This may be looked at as selfish but it’s an important part of our journey. It helps us connect to what love feels like when we support ourselves doing things that feel right within as opposed to saying yes and suffering through something we don’t want to do.

    What is our inner being? That’s our soul self — the part of us that our intuition originates from. It’s the part of us that will help steer us down the proper path, if we allow it to. This is another key aspect of ourselves we were not taught about at an early age, unless you had parents who were practicing spirituality. Our inner being always has our best interest at heart because it’s the seat of our soul and the very essence of who we are. Its purpose is to love us even when we are not loving ourselves. It leads us to the well within ourselves where love is in abundance. Our job is to recognize its soft voice from the loud voice of the ego which was meant to keep us playing small.

    What is love? Love can feel elusive especially if we haven’t had much experience with it, but in order to know ourselves deeply, we must form a love relationship with ourselves. When we can understand how love feels, we are able to give love to another as well as receive it in return. I’ve had many experiences where I thought I had received the love of another and later realized after a painful experience, it was not actually love. When I looked at this with clarity, I saw with sadness what I had not seen previously — they were incapable of offering me their love because they didn’t value themselves, and therefore, couldn’t value me. If we are depleted from our own love and attention, then we are giving from an empty glass. How could an empty glass fill up another or quench their thirst? It can’t. Love must be given from a loving heart not a heart in lack.

    Many of us have trained ourselves to operate from a place of lack so we are always operating from a glass less than full believing that we are giving the best of ourselves… but are we? If we are operating at half a glass capacity, we don’t have much to offer another. They are not getting our complete best or the fullness of our love because we have not filled our glass. You can equate this to your bank account. You can’t keep giving money out without taking money in. After a while, you will have nothing to give or pay your bills with. Our love works the same. Energy is energy; money and love are both energies. If we don’t have it, we can’t offer it. Now that we see the truth in how important it is to fill our own cup, why aren’t we doing this as part of our everyday routine?

    It’s time to recognize our own importance and focus on ourselves first. When we do things for ourselves that feels good, and it shows. When we tune inwards and offer ourselves love first our cup is full and even overflowing at times, making it possible to share our cup of goodness with others. Doing things that support and make ourselves happy opens and expands our heart center. The more we open our heart the more we feel love, joy, bliss, and believe it or not, freedom! Yes, freedom is part of the heart center package. When we are happy life flows, we flow, and everything just falls in place. When we are not happy and feel unloved or unfulfilled, we are not operating from our fullness. The lack of self-love stops the flow of universal energy, and as a result, our vibration is low. We cannot create or expand our heart when our vibration is low. When our heart is open and full of love, we are in a higher vibrational state of being and universal energy is in great abundance. When we are operating from our heart, we do not notice the lower-level struggle or challenges life throws our way because we step over them with ease and grace. Everything becomes easier. Challenges become diminished in our life experience because they are not a match for our high vibration, which is based in self-love. Did you know that self-love raises our vibration? It does!

    When we are in a high vibe state, full of love, we are naturally more present within ourselves. We gravitate towards doing things for ourselves that nourishes as opposed to depletes us. Things like eating clean and healthy foods may require us to invest time and energy in grocery shopping, as well as preparing our meal. Making time to be in nature is another thing we can do to open and expand our heart center. When we make time to be in nature, we are present with the Earth and everything within her realm. We just need to tune into the energy of the trees, birds etc. to feel joy and contentment, all of which feed self-love.

    Exercise is another thing we can do to help ensure our body stays strong and flexible. Yoga is great for this. One of the beautiful things about Yoga is it brings us within and back to center, requiring us to focus on our posture and form. We can use our practice to gage where we are in serving our-self. A daily practice of poses that would assist and support in opening our heart center would be extremely beneficial in bringing in the energy of self-love. Poses such as puppy pose, cobra, locust pose, and bow pose would be the most beneficial.

    Self-talk is also a very important part of opening and expanding our heart center. Words, thoughts and actions set intention in motion. We must pay attention to everything we are creating, as well as where we are placing our attention. Self judgement through negative thoughts, words and actions can keep us locked in a lower vibration. Positive self-talk is just as important as doing things for ourselves that make us feel good. I see so many people doing amazing things for themselves, but they negate all of it with negative self-talk. This seems to be one of the most difficult areas for people when it comes to loving themselves. Once our vibration falls it takes a lot of work to raise it back up and hold feelings of happiness and joy, which are based in love.

    Love is energy, based in its own frequency of 528 Hz. If we want to feel love and open our heart center, we must tune our vibration to the frequency of love. This means that we must do things for ourselves that are an energetic match to the frequency of love. This is why it’s so important to find out and know what the frequency of love “feels” like within and bring in more of that. We can’t use our mind; we must feel it to know it. If we expect our frequency to be raised by things and people outside of ourselves, we are in trouble. When we hold love we have the power to help shift someone into their own love. When everyone around us feels the power of our love, we all win!

    If you are unsure of what love feels like a simple exercise would be to lay in bed at night just before you’re ready to fall asleep. Place your hands on your heart and tell your heart you love it. As you are doing this think about how it’s always there for you, more than anyone else you know. Think about how your heart holds up its end of the bargain by performing its simple job of beating in each moment to sustain your life. Now take a step back and look at how many years it’s been doing that. See how you have not paid attention to your own heart? We should never offer our heart to another unless they are going to care for our heart the way our heart cares for us.

    Another exercise is to stand in front of the mirror and place your hands on your heart. Look deep into your own eyes and tell yourself how much you love yourself for all the magic you are. Start pointing out all the things that are unique about who you are. You are, after all, the only one like you. Next, look at all the ways you stop yourself from truly experiencing happiness in your life. Make decisions now to improve it instead of waiting until a future moment or event.

    We must be present to see all we are creating. We want to make choices that are highly aligned with our own joy and happiness in each moment. This means doing a personal inventory of what feels good and not just going with the flow because everyone else is doing it. When we go with the flow we are not in our own personal alignment and this will bring our energy down. Being present and showing up for ourselves must be our priority so we can be at our personal best for ourselves and everyone else around us. Self-love is the key to expanding our heart and opening us up to our greatest joy.

    By Maria Deesy

    Maria is an Energy Intuitive, Ascension Guide and Wayshower working within the energetic blueprint of both Gaia and her clients to access and assist in transmuting trauma at all levels. Maria’s also able to read to solar frequencies of the cosmos and can provide insight Into the energies presenting in order to better navigate our physical experience during our Ascension. Her work supports the awakening process of humanity. Connect with Maria on the following sites: website, blog, Instagram, or Twitter. Copyright©2020 MariaDeesy.com

    Photo by Amy Shamblen on Unsplash

  • Chakras 101

    In these times of uncertainty with all there is going on in the world we are finding ourselves more stressed than ever before. It’s important not to lose sight of the importance of taking care of yourself to ensure that you remain healthy and balanced through mind, body, and soul. Nourishing the spiritual body is as important as feeding the physical body and vice versa.

    Chakra is a Sanskrit word meaning “wheel of light”. Picture circular spirals or vortexes of energy that interact with our physical body through the layers of our subtle energy field. Each chakra rotates or spins at its own frequency and has a front and back. Chakras are shaped like conical funnels with the point of contact at the spine and the wide mouth end pointing out towards the world around us. Each chakra regulates a different aspect of the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual body. They are responsible for energy coming into our body as well as energy leaving our body and are the key to physical health, emotional stability and mental clarity. I like to think of them as a “superhighway”, many lanes filled with information coming in as well as going out moving at an incredible speed.

    There are 7 main Chakras contained within the energy field of the body. Each Chakra is associated with the gland in its area, our glandular system is responsible for regulating our body system, things like temperature, hormones etc. Chakra’s are also the key point for helping us develop our intuition. They are associated with the colors of the rainbow starting with red and responsible for assisting us in keeping ourselves in optimal health by bringing in information required by our body and releasing information when it is no longer relevant or required.

    This is an outline for the main 7 seven chakras in the body, where they are located, the color, what glad they are associate with, problems when they are not functioning, their psychic function, and the dimensional plane they are associated and work with through our DNA:

    First: Root / Red / Effects: Grounding, Fight or Flight, Addictions, Abundance / Gland: Adrenals / Communicates: through Sympathy in a physical way / Dimension: First

    Second: Sacral / Orange / Gland: Ovaries or Testes / Effects: Creativity, Feelings of Self / Communicates: through Empathy / Dimension: Second

    Third: Solar Plexus / Yellow / Gland: Pancreas / Effects: Power Center, Self Esteem / Communicates: through Clairsentience / Dimension: Third

    Fourth: Heart / Green / Gland: Heart / Effects: Relationship to others / Communicate: through Astral realm: guidance / Dimension: Fourth (Astral Realm / Rainbow Bridge)

    Fifth: Throat / Light Blue / Gland: Thyroid / Effects: Speaking Truth, Will Power, Separation from ourself as Source / Communicates: through Clairaudience / Dimension: Fifth

    Sixth: Third Eye / Indigo / Gland: Pituitary / Effects: Seeing clearly, Persecution / Communicates: through Clairvoyance / Dimension: Sixth

    Seventh: Crown / White or Purple / Gland: Pineal / Effects: Connection to Source and expansion of Consciousness / Communicates: Divine Connection and Guidance / Dimension: Seventh

    It’s my belief that chakras are associated with and responsible for each band in our Aura field. They are in constant flow moving between our own body and the bodies of those we come in contact with during our daily travels, our family, relationships, co-workers and friends. Since they are connected to the glandular system and transmit energy throughout our body, becoming a barometer of sorts for our emotional, mental and spiritual state of being, we can see that chakras are a vital part of our life force energy. Keeping our Chakras healthy and clear is as important as maintaining any other area of our body.

    Through my work, it has become clear to me that our mental body (thoughts) and our emotional body (emotions) are critical key components in our ability to maintain good health. We know our thoughts are electric, they are the “spark” that first ignites our process of thinking. Our thoughts can have us out a day, week, month or year into our future without our awareness which pulls us away from being present in our now moment. This is going to impact our root chakra first since thoughts heading into our future are often about our “survival” in some way.

    Next up in our process is our emotions, activated and rushing out to meet up with where our thoughts have ventured. This is a natural process for our emotions since they are magnetic, and always trying to make good time, keeping up with the lightning speed like action of our thoughts, and because emotions are magnetic, they are heavy and dense which makes it hard for them to keep up with the fast pace of our thoughts. If we are not paying attention to our thought process, not doing a good job staying present, we will create an “out of balance, out of synch” feeling in our body both mentally and emotionally. This becomes anxiety. Our emotions are struggling to keep time with our thoughts and create the anxious feeling associated with anxiety. This is where illness begins. We create it through our thoughts, emotions and actions most times without awareness. This imbalance of energy streaming through the subtle energy body begins to build up and shift our physical body out of balance.

    Disease and illness are initiated in the energy field and by continuously repeating the belief and emotion (imbalance), over a period of time especially if we have unhealthy living habits, the chaotic energy will take hold in the body as it’s pulled in through the energy field into the physical body becoming disease and serious illness. This is where marrying a thought and emotion over and over until it becomes a “belief” we can’t let go of, impacts the flow of energy in our body and we begin to notice a decline in our state of wellbeing. Through our mental and emotional dis-ease we have created an opportunity for disease to set in.

    When the body moves into a state of dis-ease it stands to reason that disease / illness will manifest in the body. An illness in our body points to or relates to an illness in our entire being. For instance, the color of the Root / Base Chakra is red, and the aspect is grounding spiritual energy. Physically it deals with fight or flight, mentally it warehouses attitudes of territory, primal instincts for survival, family value, religious beliefs, belonging, separation, and our right to your own space and existence. The emotional body warehouses the emotional component such as aggression, anger, fear, survival. The spiritual aspect is security / stability or lack of. Health issues related to the root chakra can include addictions and compulsions, nervous system diseases or disorders, family dysfunctions etc. The dimension is the first which is also the first strand of the 12 strands of DNA we are healing / activating through our spiritual evolution and is associated with our physical body. This first chakra / first strand of DNA is responsible for our physical body experience in our day to day reality. Now you can see how it’s all tied together.

    In these times of uncertainty with all there is going on in the world we are finding ourselves more stressed than ever before. It’s important not to lose sight of the importance of taking care of yourself to ensure that you remain healthy and balanced through mind, body, and soul. Nourishing the spiritual body is as important as feeding the physical body and vice versa. This requires that we keep our thoughts, emotions, and actions in check. Awareness is the key to maintaining good health. When we are thinking good thoughts about ourselves, speaking kindly to or about ourselves, and taking action to ensure our contentedness and wellbeing are met, the result will be a happy, healthy, balanced energy field in which our chakras play a main role. We are the key to our well-being, it’s up to us to create balance.

    Creating balance in our life can include healthy eating, taking time to nurture ourselves but most importantly it’s about movement since the root chakra is all about the “physical” state of being. This is where our health begins. Yoga is the perfect way to create flow in your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual experience. Any poses that support the root chakra will support the entire subtle body energy system.

    Join me next time for an in-depth look at the Root Chakra for an understanding of how it plays a vital role right now as we see the destruction and chaos around us through the events of the past few months. We will look at ways in which the root chakra becomes unhealthy, how it can affect our body as well as ways in which we can bring it back into balance and which brings balance and vitality to our overall state of well-being. It’s one of the most important chakras for maintaining our overall stability.

    Maria Deesy

    Maria is an Energy Intuitive, Ascension Guide and Wayshower working within the energetic blueprint of both Gaia and her clients to access and assist in transmuting trauma at all levels. Maria’s also able to read to solar frequencies of the cosmos and can provide insight Into the energies presenting in order to better navigate our physical experience during our Ascension. Her work supports the awakening process of humanity. Connect with Maria on the following sites: website, blog, Instagram, or twitter. Copyright©2020 MariaDeesy.com

    Image by Okan Caliskan from Pixabay


  • Creating Illness: Healing through awareness

    Healing is an inside job, no one can heal you if you are not holding a true and complete desire to heal yourself.  Those of you familiar with my work have heard me say this over and over again. Healers are amazing conduits for healing to occur, I say that as someone who is trained in both Usui & Karuna Reiki almost 20 years ago. It’s how I started to become aware of the Subtle Energy Body. If you keep reading, I’ll explain how we can receive a healing, think we’re healed only to get sick again.

    The fault for the re-occurrence is not with the healer, it’s with the recipient’s lack of awareness to how the energy body works, as well as the lack of understanding as to how our thoughts and emotions (beliefs) play an integral part in how our reality is created which becomes our life experience. Once you understand the relationship between your thoughts, emotions and actions to your energy body you can heal and never get sick again.

    The energy of pain and suffering is low and very dense in its vibrational state.  It’s much easier to get momentum going with low vibrational thoughts, it’s like tossing a snowball down-hill, it builds on itself and becomes very difficult to manage or stop. If you create enough of these lower level thoughts and emotions, over time, you can get locked into a cycle of pain and suffering which then becomes a mental / emotional state of being we get locked into called victim-hood mentality which can make it almost impossible to escape.  The lower dense energy of our emotions locks us in to a feeling we run continuously, it becomes a drug and we are addicted to it because it’s the only way we know how to feel.  The more you stay in these lower vibrational states of pain and suffering the easier it becomes to create more.  It’s like being stuck on a hamster wheel, with no escape so you keep creating more.  Higher vibrational thoughts are harder because they are more uncomfortable for us to try to have if we are used to being in a lower state where we feel “nothing ever works out for us or this is just my rotten luck.”

    We are only going to barely skim the surface talking about how we create illness but it’s a good start. If you find yourself getting triggered reading this it’s ok, just breathe.  It’ll all make sense as we go. Awareness is the key, we must be aware of what we are creating through our thoughts, words and actions because that’s what’s creating our experience in our reality.  It’s important to remember that nothing is happening “to us” but rather “for us” in order to help us shift.  No one is setting us up to fail, our soul chose all of this to understand what it feels like to move through and transcend darkness into light to heal.

    Having created Cancer in my body back in 2000’, I was abruptly catapulted onto my path of self-discovery because my life goal of attaining success at my job was suddenly shifted and now solely about healing my body. I was not going to “get it” with the first cancer event in 2000’, it was going to take a reoccurrence in 2004’ to shake me awake. That’s when everything changed, I changes as I became more aware of what was still needing my attention with regard to change.  When I started to look at how I was living, thinking and feeling my life was suddenly heading in a new direction.  I was on a quest to figure it all out. I was someone who needed to know the “how & why”, which can be a challenge at times but in this case, it was my blessing.  It brought me deeper into awareness of myself and through my process I became a critical thinker.  I remember knowing I could not put anyone else in charge of my healing, it was my job.  I remember knowing this with every fiber of my being and looking back now I see I was not even close to where I am now in awareness but it’s a process and I was off to a good start. Since that second dance with cancer it’s been a never-ending search for the truth in how / why we become sick.

    Through my process of self-discovery, I read hundreds of books on all thing’s energy, the body and emotions, I’m well versed in everything Carolyn Myss, Louise Hay, Debbie Ford and the list goes on but in truth there was always something missing. Even after all the work I had done, starting back in 2000’, it still wasn’t clear why we got sick or how we could heal. Why can some people consume nothing but junk food and live to be104 years old and a health fanatic dies at 40, it never made sense. My work has been based on healing the whole and not the illness because to me that’s like applying a band aid when stitches are needed. The same is true with therapy, it keeps you locked in a loop never really resolving the problem which is the generational patterning, programming or Karmic loop cycle playing out because everything is at the soul level. It feels good in the moment, but that deeper resolution never seems to come… only more separation of self as you struggle to make sense of yourself / your life / your past and most importantly what you could’ve done better to prevent it. The nature of the illness is not really about anyone or anything else, it’s about you and your “perception” of you.  Healing is an inside job; it has nothing to do with anything outside of you. If you take a few minutes more and keep reading, I’ll explain what I’m talking about.

    My work is based on helping people resolve their emotional trauma in order to assist them in their process of healing.  This past year was filled with crazy “pop up” health anomalies, some easy to resolve and others needing a deeper process. Many people called within several days of each other for help with UTI’s and just as many for kidney / bladder stones and now skin problems (including hair loss). In all my years doing this work, assisting people in finding their place of wellbeing through reversing illness and pain in their body I don’t think I’ve had such an eye-opening moment. The intensity of the energy we’re experiencing is bring a lot of emotional stuff to the surface needing to be healed / released.  Resistance to change is the number one catalyst of physical pain / illness. When we are in resistance to letting go our body responds with pain or/and illness.  The resistance is in our thinking process.  Our thoughts snowball and gain momentum which then creates a desire for our emotions to marry the thoughts.  Thoughts and emotions go hand in hand.  Because they are denser than thoughts it’s almost impossible to have one without the other.  The imbalance has us emotional over what we are “perceiving” in our reality as our truth, which is often times not even close to what is really true but we fail to realize that because the density of our emotions has already locked us onto the hamster wheel and we slowly spiral out of control creating anxiety and fear or anger as the first step in creating illness.

    I’ll break this down for you in case you’re not familiar with how illness is created. What all health issues have in common is thoughts, emotions and actions marrying together and being brought into the body through the electromagnetic field through the aura and finally into our physical body. It all starts with our thoughts (electric) and emotions (magnetic) which are our beliefs, followed by our actions.  When emotions are not resolved they imprint in our electromagnetic field. The electromagnetic field locks in these time imprints as memories, these are known as timelines which anchor into our electromagnetic field which causes a build-up of density which is created by our emotions. We imprint that timeline through our emotions, so we have now embedded a memory of how we felt in that moment. We carry it with us and keep referring to the memory / emotion of that particular time(line) and over time the density builds creating a distortion in our energy field.  Eventually it weakens our field which then creates a tear or a hole where our personal energy (chi) leaks out.  This weakens our physical body over time and if nothing is done to correct the situation, we develop an illness.

    These emotional imprints or timelines as they are is why it’s so hard to let go of something painful from your past such as relationships.  It doesn’t matter how old / new it is, once we create an emotional imprint it’s with us until we’ve have had enough and release it.  We have a timeline with each person, situation etc. in our life.  Gaia also holds timelines known as the Akashic Records, they are a record of everything our soul has experienced across all timelines, dimensions and parallel realities.  This is the experience we have of being multi-dimensional. Gaia holds all of this information for each human, It’s the collective experience or collective consciousness and we in our physical form have the individual experience.  Every time we think of a situation to which we have an emotional connection / tie, we perceive it through it’s timeline and it will feel fresh, like it just happened as we replay it in our emotional body because of the strength we give it through our thoughts, and actions.

    Our emotions are the powerhouse, they magnetize our past to us. We have learned, throughout our life to master the art of creating emotions to go with events in our lives that have brought us joy and sorrow. The emotions connected to sorrow have been trained by us to occur each time we are triggered into recalling that emotional event / situation / relationship from our past.  Emotions and thoughts give power to our beliefs.  This is the key in resolving illness.  We must develop awareness in order to see what we are creating in each moment.  This is how we can develop a present moment state of being.

    Every illness / issue in the body is an imprint in the electromagnetic field via these timelines. On a soul level certain illness can be built into what we’re here to experience as a soul in human form.  This is called “Generational Patterning”, cancer is an illness the soul group as a collective might choose to experience. There are many reasons why we create illness, in the case of Generational Patterning it’s to heal the family lineage for the soul group, sort of like ending the pattern or behavior that was never resolved by other family members.  When you heal it the generations after you do not have to deal with it, so they won’t create it.  I healed the cancer in my family by owning my healing process.

    Now that we’ve touched on how illness works within timelines, we can understand the other part in the equation of healing our body through how we handle these timelines which are really our “memories” of the experience we’ve had.  Since memories are held onto by our human thinking mind and we see that we are creating the pain and suffering by continually dipping back into our past experiences and pull that memory along with those feelings / emotions front and center, then we start the fueling process giving fire to it through our thoughts. This is why the pain feels fresh & present, we recreate it over and over again and again by not realizing we do not need to relive / rehash it.  When we see this and realize that everything that occurred in our past is merely a “representation” of who we were then at that time we will realize we do not need to review it.  Part of this process revisiting our wounds is our belief that we did something wrong or that something could’ve been done differently when none of that is true.  Everything occurs exactly as it’s meant to in order to create the experience needed to move us forward in order to move out of our state of stuckness.  Crisis is notorious for giving us our wake-up call.

    Now we can look at why it’s hard to let go of pain and suffering. Our bodies hold a unique frequency to us. Our frequency is related to our electromagnetic field.  Our field, just like our chakras, spins which is known as an oscillation rate.  The oscillation rate gives us the frequency at which we vibrate, thus known as our “vibration”.  Since pain and suffering is at a lower vibration, each time we recall that painful thought we connect back to that lower vibration to match that imprinted timeline of the memory of that situation.  In doing so we bring ourselves back to that moment in time creating more density in our energy field through our emotions… our emotions are magnetic and dense.  Our felid is spinning at a slower lower rate creating an imbalance and instability in our state of being.  Our ability to create illness in our physical body is only one part of the equation, it’s what we do with that energy / emotions we are recalling and feeling back into.

    The second part of this equation holds as much importance to how we create illness because it has to do the timelines imprinted to the Earth.  The Earth also has a frequency that has an oscillation rate which creates its vibration just as we do.  Gaia is currently ascending her consciousness and raising to 5D and is in the process of shedding 3D.  We still carry 3D in our field which is why it’s important to do our work so we can be in vibrational alignment with Gaia.  Our whole existence 3D is where we created these experiences, we played in polarity and duality which gives us the experience of something being good / bad, right / wrong etc.  It’s the perfect environment for our soul to work through understanding the human experience.  Looking at cancer again, in our experience Gaia is holding an imprinted timeline cancer and we are holding an imprinted timeline in our field we activate the imprinted timeline in our field and match the same imprinted timeline Gaia holds of cancer.

    The important thing to understand here is that instead of just our emotional/ mental energetic timeline imprint being held by Gaia we are not tapped into the “billions” of people that make up the cancer timeline imprint Gaia who may be struggling just like us, same emotional status as us and we feel it all.  This collective consciousness dealing with cancer is now added to the cancer we are feeling into trying to heal so it magnifies our emotions, thoughts and actions. This is referred to as the “collective consciousness”.  This is likely to add to the emotions you’re already feeling. This is why it can be difficult for some people to handle an illness.  They feel overwhelmed because it’s not just their emotions they are dealing with.  I remember my grandfather had stage 2 cancer and was gone in a matter of weeks.  He was overcome with the fear of dying.  He held his fear and, unintentionally, the fear of the collective consciousness.  I never held fear, I knew I wasn’t going to die from cancer because I was supposed to use it to open to this work.

    Tuning into the collective timeline of an illness can leave us in a state of greater overwhelm than if we were left alone with our emotions, this one of the number one reasons we don’t heal, or we heal and experience a reoccurrence. It’s a loop cycle because of the duality and polarity held on the Earth. When someone heals and stays healed it’s because their thoughts, emotions and actions have shifted out of that patterning, known as a belief system, which let’s go if that timeline and healing occurs. That timeline collective could have hundreds of thousands or millions who are feeding the same emotional energy experience along with their thoughts to that collective timeline which then amplifies your experience with that illness that is now needing to be dealt with by you. Many of the collective timelines are generational imprints, holding the potential for them to be activated by you through any crisis in your life over time. We create our reality in every now moment, it’s a currency exchange of vibration. We need to start thinking about how we are spending our energetic (vibrational) currency. We did not come here to suffer. We came here to live an abundant life. We stay stuck through our thoughts and perceptions that this is the way it must be, this is not true.  Do you know your beliefs are not yours, they don’t belong to you?  They are actually handed to you and you just believe you need to incorporate them into your state of being and own them.

    Let’s talk about those three illnesses I mentioned way back in the beginning.  We can’t go into the remedy since each individual requires something unique in their own process, but I’d like to breakdown a few of the more common issues I’m seeing right now, from an energy perspective, to show you how illness is created.  When there is an event that creates emotions, many can participate which becomes the collective experience.  We can look at how our thoughts, emotions and beliefs create the story for what takes place in our body. Remember, I’m giving you what I perceive as the underlying energetic component of each. (Disclaimer, I am not a Dr. If you feel you need medical attention and a Dr is required, please see one).

    Let’s start with UTI’s. They are Root / Sacral chakra based and have to do with urinating or lack of because of the bacterial infection. This is an emotional situation of being “pissed or pissed off”. The Bladder is involved, and that energetic component is “retention”. The UTI causes burning and pain when you urinate so we need to look at “anger”. This is usually towards another. In most of the cases I see it’s towards the opposite sex. Being pissed off at someone, having to suck it in, or hold it in. Usually there’s an issue with confrontation when the Bladder is involved. Being burning mad.

    Next are Stones, kidneys first, they are also about anger but here they are, mad all this time and never actually “giving shape” to their anger which now becomes lumps of undissolved anger. The kidneys crystallize the “criticisms, failures and disappointments”. I see this a lot with childhood issues, feeling like you got the short end of the stick that life didn’t work out the way you thought. It’s also in some big “desire” not playing out the way they had planned, the failure anchors in. It’s in the solar plexus so it’s about feeling a lack of empowerment and being judged mostly by yourself.

    Next we have Cysts, which are about running the same story about themselves or their life over and over. I thought I had done all the work after the second time I had cancer in 2004 but in 2013 a cyst popped up in the exact location of the cancer to show me that although I made the changes to my thoughts and emotions I still had an area I hadn’t cleared so I didn’t create cancer again but I did create a cyst showing up to let me know there was still work to be done.

    The Bladder Stone is the same anger creating the stone as in the kidneys (see above) however this is the “Bladder”, so this is about “FEAR”, retention, holding things in, mostly from the past or childhood. I see this in people who don’t like confrontation. It’s in the sacral chakra so it’s about not feeling like you’re enough. I see this where people can’t let go of a grudge they’re holding from their past. They have a difficult time communicating feelings.

    Finally, we have skin which is associated with the root chakra. Any skin issues, alopecia included, are about distress or emotional stress such as jealousy or anger that is being “reflected out” since the skin is like the mirror to our soul. I’ve seen this occur when someone was cheated on, in babies who came through a challenging birth and hold fear, as well as in difficult divorces, difficult living situations, work etc. Skin is also associated with the lungs and heart chakra, so there’s grief or fear playing a role as well. For every thought & emotion (action) there is a reaction creating a “step 1” awareness that you are out of balance through the beginning of physical pain. Thoughts and emotions that are left unattended run amok and create imbalances in the electromagnetic field which then magnetize to the same timeline imprint of the Earth and that creates the feeling of “stuckness”, pain and / or despair.

    I know these are trying times were in as were being pushed to our limits being asked to see the bigger picture and the gold paved road on our path leading to our future which is sometimes challenging to see. Most issues can easily be resolved with self-work, but they will persist if no action is taken because they are being magnetized by the collective imprint through Gaia. I had cancer twice, it opened me to new heights in my work and provided insight I never believed possible in order for me to work at new levels with my clients.  The cyst gave me the awareness I needed to see how I created all of it and if I created it, I could heal it.

    It’s time for “self-care” my friends, it’s all about you. Health issues will keep reoccurring until you take action by making yourself a priority. The more knowledge you have about how your energy body works the better you will become at navigating around these health issues and generational imprints which, will reduce your chance for illness. I hope you’ve found this information supportive to you. It’s always my intention to hold the highest vibration for expanding awareness in how our reality can be more easily navigated and healing can occur. As you can see it all starts with YOU. You are the catalyst for your own healing and the conduit for your own love. It all starts with you. Please love yourself in ALL you do, maybe now seeing you deserve the healing you really want so to kick it up a notch and activate that true DESIRE locked within and over everything / everyone else love YOU more!!!  Be the support you are seeking from others, invest in you.  You deserve it!

    Maria Deesy

    Maria is an Energy Intuitive, Ascension Guide and Wayshower working within the energetic blueprint of both Gaia and her clients to access and assist in transmuting trauma at all levels. Maria’s also able to read to solar frequencies of the cosmos and can provide insight Into the energies presenting in order to better navigate our physical experience during our Ascension. Her work supports the awakening process of humanity. Connect with Maria on the following sites: website, blog, Instagram, or twitter. Copyright©2020 MariaDeesy.com